Boxes Full of Stuff!

I realised recently that I have so much junk lurking around at home and I think that perhaps it might be time to get rid of some of it. I saw a really good film a couple of weeks ago called The Butterfly Effect and the ending inspired me with a quote “I know who I am, I don’t need a bunch of stuff to remind me!” It’s funny how we hang on to things for their sentimental value, memories of the past, good and bad. I have endless journals, photo albums, poetry I used to write and even graffiti type art from way back in the day when I desperately wanted to express all that teenage angst! I think there are many reasons I have hung on to it all, partly because I don’t think I’d be who I am if it wasn’t for all those memories, writing it down, sticking it altogether helped me to make sense of things back then and also I’m a sentimental softy! I think really though I am afraid that if I get rid off it all, somehow I’ll be erasing part of myself that made me the person I am sitting here right now.

Wouldn’t it be lovely though to start all over again, throw everything away and feel like you really do have life so much more clearly figured out now that you don’t need all that junk to remind you who you used to be? I don’t want to be one of those people who hangs on to the ‘good old days!’ I’m so much more comfortable with the skin I’m in today that perhaps I don’t need all those things to remind me who I used to be. Is it healthy to look back into your past, dredge up old issues and open up raw wounds or should they stay right there in the past? That doesn’t mean you won’t treasure all those memories (painful, glorious and life changing) in your minds eye but surely we don’t need them to define who we are today….

Who knows, but one thing is for sure, growing older means growing wiser and what I do know is that I would rather be living life with my eyes and ears wide open looking forwards than looking backwards with boxes full of ‘What ifs?’ and ‘If onlys’.

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